A Year
BSG 11-18-03

November came I left the room,
the bed we shared for years,
not ready yet to pack it in
And holding in my tears

In April I said thats enough
I put her on a train
the travesty I was living in
had me almost go insane

A year, can change so much
Yet I'm sitting here grinning like child
I said goodbye to everything and every dream I had
And its ok to let me have a smile

Spring and summer dragged on by
Each day I grew and dealt
8 years boxed up of my life
and accepting what I felt

September came and closed the house
I worked so hard to get
I finalized within courts
I slept with no regret

A year, can change so much
Yet I'm sitting here grinning like child
I said goodbye to everything and every dream I had
And its ok to let me have a smile

October came and my strength it grew
Myself solo life made sense
I finally felt a sense of joy
My life now off the fence

November's here and I'm glowing now
I've built a life for me
I get smiles from the lovely girls
People finally see me

A year, can change so much
Yet I'm sitting here grinning like child
I said goodbye to everything and every dream I had
And its ok to let me have a smile

So I sit here with my guitar
resurrected, feeling strong
finally doing so for myself
even writing me this song

And yes i'm cocky and crass at times
I've paid and deserve these days
I'm not committing any crimes
But now I get my way

A year, can change so much
Yet I'm sitting here grinning like child
I said goodbye to everything and every dream I had
And its ok to let me have a smile
Yes its alright if I just glow and smile
Sure come on by and dance with me a while
Yes it's alright, so I'm just gonna smile